Sometimes you have everything inside your head but don’t know…when to say it…or how to let it all out.
06.03.13 ♥ 0
Sometimes you have everything inside your head but don’t know…when to say it…or how to let it all out.
Weeping uncontrollably
Drowning in a sea of doubts
When will it get better?
Why me?
Knees buckling underneath me
Too young…
Too young…I thought to myself
Too young to be feeling like this
Why me?
Falling into a decadence of solitude
Can’t bear to see it
The rose has found another bee
Felt like it was mine
In my mind at least…
Why me?
Porcelain skin glistening away from me
She didn’t do enough to notice
Or maybe I didn’t do enough to get noticed
But I keep saying to myself
Why me?
Tear soaked pillows
Swimming in an ocean of despair
It’s all in my head
Why me?
A.M.S
Knock, knock, knockin on an empty door
Emptiness and lonliness will swallow me whole
The one…the one was right there all along
In my life all along
But is it too late to realize…
To realize that she is the one
Why didn’t I notice it before?
All I know is that I don’t want to feel like I did before
Pillars and stones blocked my way out
Felt like there was no way out
But here was a way out
Inched and scraped my way out
Just had to give it some time
But I don’t want to go through that again
Don’t want it to go around and come back around…to me
It was a dark place
I was hopeless
It’s always good to have hope
Sometimes we just don’t have enough
It can help us get through the times
But I didn’t have enough of it back then
Didn’t want to talk…speak…
Saw the rose with another bee
Felt like my chest had been cut open
And my heart…
My heart was pulled out before I could breathe again
Kept knocking on that empty door
Now I’m there again
What do I do?
Should I sit back an relax so I don’t have to go through it again?
I don’t need to feel like an empty soul wandering around
Sunlight was never my friend
The dark consumed my mind…my body
Or should I go for it…
Put all the marbles on the table
All bets are off
Maybe it’s best to ask rather than not ask at all
Never know what can be
But I just don’t want to be knocking on that empty door
A.M.S
Sometimes you just don’t want to listen to other people and their opinions. They might be right or even wrong about something. Sometimes it doesn’t mater if they experienced something similar or even the same thing that you are going through right now. It just doesn’t matter. It may sound like I’m an asshole or just being plain stubborn but only you know what you are feeling. Not your parents, not your friends, not your teachers, not your boss, no one. Not a single person will understand what you are going through. They don’t know what you’re going through. What kind thoughts race in and out of your head? Don’t let anyone tell you ‘it might be this…’ or ‘here’s the situation and this is how you’re going to deal with it… ‘ or maybe ‘I don’t know…maybe you should move on…’ No, I don’t want to move on if I don’t want to. Even you may not even understand what you’re feeling. But…you feel something and you know how it feels. Good or bad, its how you feel. Don’t ignore it. Don’t neglect it because it may just come back around again. You’re only neglecting yourself. Even if it may hurt too much, confront it. Don’t let anyone tell you what to do.
A.M.S
— Gregory David Roberts, Shantaram (via bab0j0)
enamored.
Some things you keep to yourself because you understand them the best.
